I NEED SLEEP.

i woke up at like 3 am to take a piss, then i returned to my bed and looked to see if dragonballz was on because it's usually been on when i wake up in the morning- it WAS on at 4, so i set my alarm in case i couldn't wake up for the show but then i had to cancel the damn alarm because i couldn't fall asleep naturally. so i watched the two episodes and managed to fall asleep afterward. it irritates me that my grandma assumed i was stupid enough to believe everything she said and she tried to make having to sleep with a cpap sound "cool", she assumed she'd get me psyched about having to depend on a fucking machine to help me breathe properly so i could actually sleep. she told me that it was "cool like a scuba diver's mask!" i didn't seem interested in it at all but if that's what i need to just fall asleep- i'll try anything. the supervisor of the assisted living program that i first lived in minneapolis would always have to tell all my doctors who wanted me to use sleeping pills that sleeping pills made me act weird, she let me hear a voicemail i left her at night when i took the sleeping pills and the message was weird. i also slept walk to burnsville center in aeropostale and walked home (i'm not sure if this is when i took the sleeping pills.. i'm pretty sure it was). depending on a machine so you can actually breathe properly to fall asleep is irritating as hell- NOTHING said could EVER convince me otherwise and it pisses me off that my grandma would assume i'm stupid enough to think it is cool just because she said it was. more proof that my grandma was naive- she DID afterall put her confidence in some woman who is just as naive as her (if not more) to help me get to new york. anywhere on the east coast would be alright though.. just as long as i'm far away from the mother from hell who just wishes to keep her children on the same level as her so she has company to make their lives suck as bad as her's. the ics worker helped me call the sleep store and they told me i was eligible for a new machine since mine was older than 5 years (so that may be why the piece of shit doesn't turn on anymore). we scheduled an appointment to get a new cpap machine and the soonest we could schedule it was in august but that's better than nothin- so i took it.